strats
23rd April 2004, 12:53
i have been going back and forth between wanting to go CIC and not. some issues are still lingering, and i dont want to go back until if and when i am totally ready. i have been out for about 2 and a half years now, but i left on a somewhat sour note. (long story, ask me if you really care.) but my cravings for cadets are getting stronger every day...
i would really like to if i could go back to my old SQN if i could, because they really need some good staff. sadly this is not an option as they are in a rural area and i live in a city where i am going to university. joining a city squadron would be very new and different for me, as i came from a smaller, rural squadron. i don't doubt that i could do it, as i worked as staff at a large camp and have delt with large groups of people in many cases. but it would be very different from what i am used to.
but i am still not sure what i should do. i am not sure if i am ready or not, and i don't want to join and then hate it, or suck at it, or look stupid, or change my mind. cadets was a huge part of my life for five years, and i loved it. it learned me well. i would like to give back, but im just not sure if i would be able to do it well.
there are so many people in cadets who drive me crazy. i don't have problems with authority, i have issues with stupid people who have authority. there are a lot of those people involved with cadets. when i am working with intelligent people, i thrive at cadets. i am the spirit master, the ultimate leader, top first year cadet. i can motivate the saddest little child and get him to have the shinest boots around. when i am surronded mostly by morons i freak out and yell at them and tell them to take their heads out of whichever place they have them and look around. i might be too much of a realist, or hippie, or sensible, or rationality, or werido to be in cadets.
i mean, we are all weirdos, yes, i mean, our first summer at camp surely sees to that. but i am just not sure. what do you guys think? any thought are welcomed. i just wanted to write honestly and see what came out.
i would really like to if i could go back to my old SQN if i could, because they really need some good staff. sadly this is not an option as they are in a rural area and i live in a city where i am going to university. joining a city squadron would be very new and different for me, as i came from a smaller, rural squadron. i don't doubt that i could do it, as i worked as staff at a large camp and have delt with large groups of people in many cases. but it would be very different from what i am used to.
but i am still not sure what i should do. i am not sure if i am ready or not, and i don't want to join and then hate it, or suck at it, or look stupid, or change my mind. cadets was a huge part of my life for five years, and i loved it. it learned me well. i would like to give back, but im just not sure if i would be able to do it well.
there are so many people in cadets who drive me crazy. i don't have problems with authority, i have issues with stupid people who have authority. there are a lot of those people involved with cadets. when i am working with intelligent people, i thrive at cadets. i am the spirit master, the ultimate leader, top first year cadet. i can motivate the saddest little child and get him to have the shinest boots around. when i am surronded mostly by morons i freak out and yell at them and tell them to take their heads out of whichever place they have them and look around. i might be too much of a realist, or hippie, or sensible, or rationality, or werido to be in cadets.
i mean, we are all weirdos, yes, i mean, our first summer at camp surely sees to that. but i am just not sure. what do you guys think? any thought are welcomed. i just wanted to write honestly and see what came out.